i was adopted into family and was abused and mistreated in one way or another by that family. i learned what not to do with kids as i look at my child hooded. At the age of 10 the lady who adopted me was still doing emergency homing for the children in critical needs or mentally unstable. If maybe they where siblings and didn't want to sperat them. she would collect the check and dump the kids on me and one of my older sisters to look after them. weather they where twin new borns allor 15 years old. i was 10 when it started and 17 when it stopped. we went through a lot of kids throughout that time and i have always said i do not want kids, Ever. fast forward today at 24 years old i feel the same way. how every the man i was with had other plans. he got me so high (weed) that i didn't watch him like i do normally. i watch him put the condom on and put it inside me with the condom. but one day he got me so high i wasn't paying attention so he did as he planned so i couldn't "get way". i wasn't going anywhere mind you. i was falling for this man and loved his son as my own. I did tell him the days i was fertility and the days that where safe. so on my most fertile day he put his plan into motion. (hisbest frend record him gloating about it to show me. Never once did he show signs of trying to do this. he was always a gentlemen.) I inspected the condom once i sobered up it was opened but hadnt been used. so now i have his kid in me i don't talk to him at all. i can't do abortion (its really really complicated). so i have to give brith as i past the miscarriage point.(danger zone) everyone in my life is making me feel like i don't have a choice and when i tell them my opinion they hang up the phine or tell me to give them my baby. (one siblled 45 cannt have kids she is blood daughter of the one who adopted me. i have scares from when she beat me for not being able to spell my own age at 12. and another has wanted kids for over 2 years but doesn't have a partener. she is extremely upset with the idea of adoption as she feels that the child will be mistreated and abused like we where. but NEVER has she said i want the the child. she is 26. she was the older sisteri mention about carrying for theother kids.) I don't want to keep it in the family as i feel everyone is to crzay and i still have scars to deal with from them. But they keep treating me like i have no choice and that makes me want to run away and never speack to any of them again. I am the second youngest of 7 women in the family. no one has ever respected my choice and opions or listen to me. would it be wrong if i ran way and never spoke to any of them for the rest of my life? even before i give brith? i would love some advice any questions ask and i will try my hardest to answer them. i feel i should add that i was kicked out at the age of 18 because i told the woman who adopted me. "i have the right to pick and choose my friends as i have gruated high school and started a new job. i need time to learn my new job then will got to college.) she kicked me out. she told me she still has authority to control my friends i make and what i plan on doing in the future. that was over 6 years ago and i don't plan on going back. as she has always controlled me and i refuse to let it happen again. be nice i hate women who are rude to ther women as we should build each other not RIP each other apart. thank you.