Defeated

Does anyone else just feel defeated? We are TTC #2 and we had a chemical in January and miscarriage in March .. so it's been tough not to mention everything else 2020 has thrown at all of us.

I really feel like this was / is my month but I started testing two days ago I am 3 days until period is due and got faint lines (or so I thought) and nothing today.. i know there is technically still hope and a chance but I'm having a hard time believing it I just want it so badly after the last few months especially it's made me realize how badly I wanted another.

I know there are plenty of woman in this community that are struggling to conceive their first so this is not a sob story for myself it's just a vent session for complete strangers.

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