This will seem trivial or dumb to some people but to me it’s something very hurtful because I deal with a lot of self esteem issues because of my weight which I am working on..I gained about 20 pounds during my pregnancy which ended in miscarriage a year ago and still have not gotten it off because of depression and lack of motivation. But that is beside the point.

I feel extremely ugly and unwanted. Whenever I start seeing a guy they will be ashamed to be with me. For example I was seeing this guy for months and he never once posted me on social media, but after we broke up he posted a new girl almost the day after he told me he was seeing someone else. He regularly would comment on my weight and then say he was just joking after I told him to not do it anymore. My self esteem got so much worse after being with him. It just made me feel really disgusted with myself because it was almost like he was embarrassed of me and didn’t want anyone to know he was seeing me. And it’s not like I’m morbidly obese I am 220 pounds and 5’8. I realize I don’t look how I used to I just feel so ugly and like I will never find love. I know it’s a stupid thing to get upset about but it really hurt my feelings.

I also started seeing a new guy who wanted to be FWB with me and I said no I wanted a relationship. Well he denied me and said he didn’t want that with me and yet again is posting a new girl on his social media. And it’s just bringing up old feelings of rejection. I’m just heartbroken and I’m not going to try to date anymore. I’m just waiting until God brings the right person to me. I’m so broken inside and I’m crying as I write this. I’m working hard to lose the weight so I can look like my old self. All I want is to feel love and valued.