What to do!

Hi ladies,

I made a mistake in my relationship and cheated with my ex boyfriend on my current boyfriend. I came clean and we had a long talk about it. I initially decided to end the relationship because I felt the lack of trust and continuing like this would be unhealthy for us both, despite the love we have for each other. After I did so, we had a series of long talks where he expressed he didn’t want to end the relationship. We care up with a plan and a series of “rules” to be able to overcome this and rebuild our relationship. However, his rules included having complete control of my phone and privacy. He has all my social media passwords and my phone provider passcode, as well as my location at all times. In addition he hasn’t really been respecting my wishes of some space to work on ourselves and work on our codependency. We designated nights to spend together, but he expects me to always submit to his wishes every time he wants me to stay over. The biggest problem is that if I just need some time alone, it would cause an argument to go against what he expects.

I thought I could handle this for a few months so I could earn his trust back, but I’m no longer sure this is helpful to any of us. I feel I’m suffocated and he is becoming the worst version of himself being so controlling.

What do you ladies think I should do?