Spiritual awakening?

If you don’t believe in this stuff just click off. During this spiritual awakening I remember going through a blissful state, where things that would have really bothered me suddenly become nothing. Ex. I had horrible road rage. When I was in that blissful state the traffic or people cutting me off no longer bothered me. I just came to the conclusion they were anxious to get where they were going. My mom & I didn’t have the best relationship it was pretty toxic. Her side comes from a generational curse of not being such good mothers. Well when I lived with her again I remember her being so angry & making dumb comments & I I’d feel so much anger in my heart. But when that did happen again, I felt peace because I knew her being angry had NOTHING to do with me & everything to do with her self & it actually made me feel bad.. it’s like I had the answers to everything & so at peace!! I struggle with HORRIBLE OCD / anxiety & I didn’t have those problems when being in this blissful state. Then out of nowhere I felt a heavy cloud go over me & I became angry, depressed, sad, hurt, confused. What do I need to do to continue this spiritual awakening & why did the blissful state end so soon?