We broke up

Okay so we are married been married for a year dated for four years but he stoped wanting to satisfy me if we did it it was only once a week or twice a week didn’t eat me out anymore he only ate me out like two times in four years of dating and a year of marriage I asked him a few times now that we are married if he would eat me out I was like I just want you to eat me and kiss me all he was like every time no love I’m tired let’s just do it sometimes great he lasted long sometimes no only a few seconds without eating me out or fingering me. Since the pregnancy he only lasted a few minutes and sometimes excuses to last almost two weeks without it I cried and cried he kept saying we are fine we are fine and I told him we are not fine I even told him I regretted meeting him and I told him I hated him with all my heart. And I do believe he loves me but just can’t give me anymore what I need to be happy we still live together but he says he will find a place for him to go and our Daughter I just want to forget and move one with my life I’ve told him I regret meeting you and being with you if I would have known it would be like this I would’ve never been with you. And told him I don’t know why we even sleep together anymore. He is not a cheater I know for a fact but before he ate me out we did it every day and sometimes even three times a day. I told him I’m sorry but you can’t and don’t want to give me what I need anymore and it’s really important to me it’s always been important to me.. I’ve cried over this so much even in front of him I know some people might think I’m heartless but I been really depressed and cried so much can’t sleep well anymore have insomnia frustrated have severe anxiety feel like I can’t even breath. He says that he just doesn’t want to get tired 😓 doing so much last night he did it and only lasted a few seconds like 10 seconds around there and the came and didn’t want to keep going. I never imagined not being satisfied any longer by the man I love and thought we would be together forever but now I think nothing could save our love if the most important thing that is being intimate and close to the person you love feeling closer to him isn’t possible. Sometimes he kissed me all and all that but not always I love him but also feel that I feel strong resentment and hate our daughter is one already I feel like I will miss her but I’ve told him if one day she asks for me to tell her I died I sometimes look at her pics and cry because I know I will have to get used to not seeing her run to me every day even if I didn’t want to have her in the begging and tried to abort on my own at home multiple times but now I’ve gotten used to her even if I felt resentment towards her at the beginning for being pregnant and her dad barely wanting to make love to me. I told him I love you but you can’t give me what I need to be completely happy and he said your not happy with me anymore and I said I am happy to a degree but there are things that I’m not happy about I need a man to do everything to me and pay attention to me and eat me out. It’s not easy leaving someone you been together for almost 5 years and remembering all the good times the times you traveled you kissed and laught and hugged and said I love you to each other and walked holding hands and made love together I even remember the old times and see our old pics and cry and dream about us being happy like before