Idk what to do!

D • Expecting baby #3 🐥 DD feb’ 21

I have two girls and I ALWAYS wanted to have a baby boy.

With my first, when I found out it was a girl (at 16 weeks) I cried for 2 days.

With my second I found out at 20 weeks and I wasn’t as miserable because I thought that even tho I felt disappointed it would be nice to give my first girl a sister.

Now I’m pregnant again (6wks) and needless to say I SO WANT IT TO BE A BOY!!! This is prob my last baby.

I’ve been thinking if I should really find out this time or just make it a surprise baby. But then what if I get gender disappointment right there in the delivery room (I’ve heard it happens). Should I just find out beforehand so I can deal with my feelings in case its another girl?