A year ago I downloaded a pen pal app so I could talk to Spanish speakers and keep up on my Spanish after I graduated. I met a lot of great people but one guy in particular really connected with me. At first I wasn’t interested but soon he had me swoon. The connection only grew more and more as time went on. Obviously we both lived in different countries and I’m not the type of person who “dates” without meeting. I still did my own thing and he did his. We talked about meeting and at times our conversations became very deep. We weren’t in a relationship or exclusive at all but sometimes talked about a future with us. I have a hard time being vulnerable but he would make comments about “me having his child” “me moving to the DR” and just all around future type comments. There were a couple times we would stop talking for a week or two because of an argument but we always came back strong. Then after we talked for months almost every day for hours on end he just left and never said anything. Two days before this we probably had are deepest conversation where we both expressed feelings and the plan with us. During this conversation we both expressed how neither of us wanted to hold the other person back but we had real feelings. He straight up told me he had strong feelings for me and if I lived closer he would be only with me. I was on cloud nine because for once I felt like we were on the same page and had a plan for us. Fast forward two days later and he doesn’t text me back. I send a couple text here and there the next week but I’m obviously being ignored. For three months now I have not heard from him but think about him constantly. Telling myself maybe something happened and he needed space or anything to give him the benefit of the doubt. Well today he posted a picture with a girl and I’m sooo heart broken. I get it he didn’t want me, I’ll move on but why not just be straight up with me? Ghosting is such bullshit! Part of me feels I would have had closure and felt better if he just told me but who knows. We weren’t exclusive and I caught feelings but now I am hurt. Today I start moving forward because I know the truth! Thanks for reading this rant, I feel better being able to talk about it!