2nd angel baby

Maybe one day I'll be able to hold my rainbow baby. Currently going thru a miscarriage right now. It's not as bad as last year physical wise as I had an ectopic last year with emergency surgery and internal bleeding and almost dieing. I'm feeling pain b/c of losing it, having to take meds to "flush" everything out and just everyone else around me having kids like no business and I'm trying for years and keep getting pregnant but not going passed 7wks. At least this time it was in my uterus and I saw a sac but it didnt go any further. I apparently passed the sac and didnt know it too. Uuuggghhhhh I just want to scream!!!!!!!!!