So I feel that the last four years and TTC have been for nothing I don't know how to deal with everything I'm feeling at the moment.

Things have been tough with the husband for a while now but have only recently been brought to a head.

He is leaving today.

Moving in with his parents until he finds his own place. Only he says we only need to live separately for 6 months as that will 'fix everything' and we can 'start again and date'

I want to be angry at him as I don't feel he is taking things seriously. I want to be upset that the only time I've seen him happy or interested in anything in the last two weeks is talking about potential properties.

I want to be heartbroken that my dreams of a family are over. All the tests and treatments and my hormones being all over the place feel like they are for nothing. I've tried speaking to him about it but he brushes me off saying we will 'pick it up' when things are sorted.

I know this environment isn't good for a baby but He just doesn't get how crushing and draining it can be to struggle to conceive.

I just feel that it's all over and don't see a way through this at the moment 😭

Just needed this vent everyone, thank you