I want to go natural I feel like I can do it this time! I will feel ashamed for getting an epidural again. My reason for not getting one is because of the back spams that come out of nowhere years later. Why would I be ashamed? There's always someone saying I went natural with all mine! I'm like dang if they can do it I can do it! It hurts so bad but it's possible! I just can't get passed feeling like a failure for getting the epidural for a 3rd time, or just feeling like awww you're weak 😔.