Panic and depression

Being pregnant is what I've always wished for since I met my husband. Making our family bigger with kids and all the love that comes with it.

I have suffered from anxiety and depression most of my adult life. I see a therapist every two weeks and I've been doing really well.

Being pregnant now (20 weeks) has been the biggest rollercoaster of my life.

All these questions pops up in my head. Do I really want to become a mother? Am I only doing this because I feel pressured? My friends are building their families, should I do it too? Will I love my child? What if I regret my child? Will I survive this? What will my new life be like? Can I be what my child needs? So many questions that fills up my head and it's just so overwhelming.

It's like I am having the biggest existential crisis , it's like im in a nightmare.

Most days I feel alright but sometimes the panic attacks just takes over me completely.

Is there anyone else out there who has experienced this during pregnancy? What did you do to feel better?

I am very scared.