(Long post) i need help 🥺

So, I’ve been struggling with my sexuality for a while, and I’ve gotten to the point where I told myself “just steer clear of labels and go with it”. But, and I don’t know why, lately I’ve been very confused and stressing, sort of, over it. In 7th grade (I’m 16 now), I thought I was a lesbian but that’s definitely not true, then I said I was straight (but then had a small thing with a girl for not even a month). I think it’s because I had a crush on a guy that didn’t like me back, so I gave my emotions to a girl who wanted them...if that makes sense.

I find women attractive, but it’s celebrities most of the time, and I can’t see myself actually dating a girl. I have crushes on guys I see around all the time, ya know? But there’s never a girl I pass by and think “oh wow, she’s so pretty”. I don’t know why I can’t see myself dating a girl. Does anyone else have a little storyline in their head with people they have a crush on? Well, I try doing that but with a girl, but it’s...differenty(?). The thought of having sex with a girl has fascinated me for the past couple years. Sex with a guy is a given, like, that’s never been something I questioned.

I figure I’m bi-curious. What else would it be? ...it kind of scares me, and I dunno why. My family is super supportive, my friends are too. I don’t care what anyone else thinks. But, if anyone else struggled with this and decided to read through all this, but I’d really like some help? If you have extended advice, you can message me ☺️