I have a daughter almost 3 and I'm 14 weeks pregnant. I'm so ashamed to not be happy about this pregnancy:( I know once it's here I'll love them. But I still struggle everyday with my daughter.....I feel like I've never gotten over the PPD I had with her, and I'm just not ready to get another wave of it:( Everyone comments and asks about it all the and is excited and I haven't come to terms with it happening yet, I just dont wanna talk about it😔

I go to the Dr tmrw for my 2nd appointment and I'm just anticipating everyone asking how it went, if I found out the sex, etc. and I just wanna be left alone:(

I'll grown attached to this baby eventually right.....?