Why is my body playing tricks

So on June 3rd I had ewcm cervix was soft open high so I dtd at lunch time, now I’m late.

It is like my body is playing with my head (saying you got the timing right so imma pretend you are and then when you start to think you could be imma take it away. )

I have a 12 day LP, and a 29 day cycle it is now cd31 and cervix is still high med soft and closed. I used a dollar store early pregnancy test yesterday it was negative. ( might be to early) I don’t know.

I just want either to happen at this point I don’t like not knowing. This cycle was not like any others I had ever.. I got hot flashes for two day on June 13th and 14th. Plus three days of diarrhea( sry).my nose is stuffed. Oh and yesterday at 5:30 am I had a pulling feeling in uterus.

My normal is once or twice in the week leading up to af I get loose bm, my bbs tender and I get bitchy.

So why is this so different why the hot flashes I’m 36 birthday is next month I’ll be 37 (maybe I’m premenopausal) . I read that hot flashes are caused by elevated progesterone. and my hot flashes happened a few day’s before my predicted af day..

and pulling feeling all that I could find as it is a early pregnancy thing or implantation...but if it means something else please tell me..

I am tcc #4 been trying for 14 months... guessing it is gonna be 15 months. If af would just start already.

Rant over thanks for reading.