was i raped/sexually assaulted?

the first time i was were fingered, i didn’t want to. i kept telling my bf no and he kept pushing. he ignored me and got mad at me until i said fine. i was crying while he did it. i didn’t want to and wasn’t comfortable but he wouldn’t take no for an answer. the first time i gave him head it happened to. even to this day if i say no to head, he’ll beg and get upset until i do it. at one point he told me that he’d kill himself if i didn’t have sex with him. i told my friend and she stopped me from doing it. to this day i feel so grateful she saved me that night.