Story Time Y’all

Ok so, I’ve been talking to this guy for about three months. He and I had known each other since eighth grade and finally one might I added him on insta. Well he dmmed me and we started talking and he admitted than he’d had a crush on me for quite some time. I had felt the same way. We continued to talk for a while and one night I invited him over. He responded I could use some cuddles. So, he came over and we talked for quite a few hours and in the end it led to us kissing.

So things were great. My long time crush and I were talking. However, I had just gotten out of a year long relationship and was straight up and told him this. I’m going to college in the fall and wasn’t really ready to commit to someone fully again.

He said that was ok and to give him the time before I went to college to convince me to stay with him. Well, another few weeks go by and we end up sleeping together. I’ve only ever been with one other person and have never been able to cum by a guy. He made me cum and actually showed me what sex is supposed to be like.

A couple more weeks go by and we continue to talk and I find out that his mom died, he literally cried in my arms. I was really starting to get feelings for him. Which is saying a lot cause I have bad trust issues.

The last time he saw me in person he told me he loved me. I didn’t say it back, I did let him know I had feelings for him but I didn’t love him yet.

Well, my parents found out we were having sex and forbade me from talking to him. That didn’t happen. I did end up talking to him through Instagram and I asked him straight up if he still wanted to talk and he responded, “ I love you, shithead”. Now, I know that’s kinda rude but why did it make my heart flutter. 😂😂

So, I could only talk through insta and I didn’t have a phone. Things were going good until one day he stopped responding and hadn’t even read my messages. After a day and a half of no response I texted and said I wasn’t gonna keep trying if he wasn’t.

Well, I was suspicious and texted his best friend. I asked if he had heard and anything and he said he hadn’t in about two days. Turns out he had lost his phone. Alright, that’s chill.

After a few more days I decide to call his phone just to see, he picks up. Well then I’m like you lied to me. He says he didn’t lie to me and he had just gotten a new phone. Mind you, during this, I was also blocked from Snapchat and my other insta account.

So, probably another week goes by, he’s read a few of my texts and sent me one hey. I call him again, he acts as if everything is normal. Although, I did have to use *67 cause my number was blocked, which he said he didn’t do. He acts as if everything’s normal and talks about his car and stuff. At the end of the call I ask if he still wants to talk or what. He says he’s gonna go see why my numbers blocked and talk later. Definitely not a yes or no.

I stopped trying after that. I was confused and things weren’t adding up. Now, fast forward to last week. I really needed to talk to someone and I decided to dm him, I was not blocked on that account. And lo and behold, he texted back heyyy. WITH THREE Y’s.

Anyway, about two days ago I texted him and said ,”I’m sorry, I just feel like I’ve kinda been bothering you over the past few days and if that’s true, just let me know. If you don’t really wanna talk to me you don’t have to just cause.”

He hasn’t responded, he hasn’t read it. Now, it was a dm. So it would most likely all pop up on his screen. Meaning he has most likely seen it. At this point I don’t know what to do.

I have feelings for him now and I honestly do want a relationship with him. It’s not that I miss the attention, cause if that was it I’d just get it from someone else. I really just want an honest chance to date him and get to know him.

Y’all, I’m confused. What do I do? I’m at a loss. I don’t want to continue trying and seem desperate. However, I do want the chance.