I'm wearing on my husband..

I am depressed and having active suicidal ideation. It's wearing on my husband and I feel so guilty, please help me.

What can I do to help him. I'm sorry.

Responding to comments: I am going to therapy for the first time in seven months this Wednesday. My husband just looked so sad tonight, I feel so guilty. I don't really know how to cope, I just breakdown and cry and ride it out until I go to bed or have to work. I still cry at work and I'm not sleeping well. I have called a hotline, a week and a half ago. It did help.