Will my husband ever love me????

I'm so tired of my husband. I don't believe in divorce (religious reasons) but I'm so tired of it! He yells at me all the time, he belittles me, he makes me feel so stupid, he yells at our toddler anytime he comes near him (he thinks kids shouldn't be allowed on furniture or to speak), he barely works (maybe 10 hours a week) and all he does is play games on his phone and demand things. I try so hard to stay calm and not yell back and just do what he says for the sake of my kids but I feel like I'm at my end. This isn't the man I married. The man i married loved children, was romantic and spontaneous and loved life. I hate this man now. I cry myself to sleep every night because of him and I just don't know if counseling would help. He's the only one who can work because we have no family who can help watch our kids and he's the only one with a car. Even if we split up he comes from an awful family and I dont trust him to have shared custody of our children (another big reason why I put up with it). Does anyone have any advice on what i could do? Besides just leave