I need encouragement to talk to my mom about finding a therapist

I'm scared. I'm not scared to talk to her about it, but I'm scared to go talk to one. Im terrible at putting my feelings into words and I stutter and take long pauses sometimes cause I cant find the words.

I know mental health is very important. I'm just a very closed off person. I cry in front of very few people, in fact, I can count those few people on one hand. Even when I do cry, I always end up apologizing for it even though I know it's 100% okay.

I'm just so uncomfortable with expressing emotions. I know it's unhealthy, but it's not like I keep it bottled in. I do cry by myself and I write in a journal weekly.

I'm not sure what to do