Hell at home...thought things would be different

Hey all. Backstory. I lost everything in hurricane Harvey back in 2017. Moved to maryland and this man kept coming to my job trying to talk to me. I wasn’t interested in anything but WORK and trying to rebuild a life for myself and my three kids. I was wanting another child WITHOUT the stresses that came with having a “baby daddy”. I was so serious about going the sperm donor route because my KIDS and I wanted an addition to the family. Fast forward. The guy kept coming to my job and I finally took his card and called him. He was Prince Charming and blah blah blah...got to know my kids and my parents who I was staying with while I worked. I was honest with him about my desires to have another child and go the sperm bank route. He interjected and expressed his desire to have another child as well. I told him no for about a year and he was really working on it, making all these promises to fulfill my desires and about how stress free having him as a child’s father would be. He had to literally sell himself and the idea of procreation with him for a very long time because I dealt with a man already and hated everything about it so I was ANTI-baby daddy 100%...fast forward to now. We had a child. I contemplated suicide multiple times throughout my pregnancy and had to go to counseling because of his treatment and behavior towards me. She is now 14 months. I believed he would change because we went to counseling and he was a wonderful father to his child. Fast forward again. I am currently 4 months pregnant. At night he was forcing himself on me and trying to get me pregnant. My parents moved to another state and I have no friends so I really didn’t know how to escape and had been in an abusive relationship before so I was shell shocked and fell into depression. Didn’t want to live, eat, breathe, sleep, nothing. I found out I was pregnant and he was so happy. I was not. I contemplated abortion so many times and I hate to say but I even thought of it today but I would have to ask him for the money... I have asked him for the money to get it done because I was already hospitalized due to a subchorionic hematoma and I’ve NEVER had any other complications in any of my other pregnancies and I know it’s because my stress level is on 1000 because of him and his antics. I am currently trying to be on pelvic rest because my doctor told me that’s what I need to do so I do not further irritate the hematoma belt everything he does shows me he doesn’t care. He talks to me disrespectful, doesn’t come home and thinks I’m not supposed to ask when he will be home. He thinks because he pays the bills I’m supposed to stay home 24/7 and take care of the kids with no personal time to myself. He doesn’t allow me to talk to anyone or even make friends wether it’s males or females so I’m literally stuck here. He’s in control of all my money and I have no family in state. If I have important things to do suck as check my P.O. Box for important mail documents I have to wait till he gets home and when he does it’s like 8pm and if I even think about leaving the house he threatens me to not come back and that he will cancel the insurance on my car. I am trapped and I’m trying to find the joy I’m giving life to this unborn child but I am so afraid of my body being toxic for the baby because of my stress level caused by this an. I don’t ask him for a thing except for some “me-time” and for him to TREAT ME WITH RESPECT AND BE NURTURING TO ME so that I don’t lose this baby. He doesn’t care. I’m currently cramping as I type this and I weep for this child because he deserves a nurturing environment to grow and thrive in until he’s born but I’m so afraid that I will miscarry because of this selfish man child that doesn’t have the ability to be nurturing to a pregnant woman. What would y’all do? If you all have read this far, thank you. Itsreally hard not having my family or friends around me and being in a state all alone with this guy. Below are the text that I just wrote to him. I called to ask when he was coming home because I had to go check my mail. (State Farm life insurance policy sitting and waiting for my signatures). He says “I don’t know. I don’t have an answer for you.” I was like well what are you doing? I’ve been waiting all week for almost 2 weeks to get to these important document to sign them. (Kids don’t have masks. He has all the money but hasn’t bought them any) he’s laughing and says “eating chips.” I get frustrated and told him that he could have done that here. He hangs up. I text him these. I just need advice, positive thoughts, good vibes. I want this child to be born healthy but I don’t know what to do to life my spirits right now. Anything would help beside negativity. I’ve got plenty of that from the man that I gave a chance to back in 2017. Thanks. Peace and blessings.