I Want To Have Another Baby

I’ve been pregnant 8 times. I have 3 living babies.

My first baby was extremely high risk. I had to have a surgery removing a Fallopian tube and ovary during my pregnancy. I had a ton of health issues. My OB she would be very shocked if I had a successful pregnancy after that.

My second baby, I had a semi-uterine rupture. Basically it had started but never fully ruptured. I was very lucky my water broke when it did, or we would have died. My OB said she recommended no more babies. I had 3 miscarriages after that.

I got pregnant again. That pregnancy came with a ton of complications and I was very high risk. My OB recommended no more babies. I got pregnancy 2 more times after that. That last miscarriage wouldn’t carry through on it own. I came to learn I had a molar pregnancy and had to have a surgery to remove cancer. Who knew a pregnancy could bring cancer? My dr said I can get pregnant again, just not on my own. She said I’d have to see a special doctor and it would have to be planned precisely to a T and that it would be expensive and hard. She said if I get pregnant again I WILL die, that I was very lucky I didn’t die this time since I came very close to it. I got put on birth control and I have to see the dr every month.

But I’m in my 20’s, I have 3 babies I love so much. But I know one day I will want another baby. But I know I could never bring myself to go through the tests. I’m thinking about adoption.