Just to make it clear I am in love with my boyfriend but I've been craving a female and I thought I'd share a past story to see what y'all think about it. So I was really feeling this girl and I've been with mostly guys and a couple girls. But this girl had a girlfriend and I backed off right then and there cause I didn't want to mess with that. We became friends and that's it, I kept my secret a secret and she didn't know for about 2 years. One night at a party and we were all fucked up on too many different things.. I finally got my chance. My boyfriend was with me and we had a threesome.. kind of before it got ruined. (I remember my boyfriend actually telling her how I felt about her. Which wasn't his place to do so. My boyfriend knew because I am honest with him. I told him in the begining of seeing him I was bi and that I was recently seeing women.)She was beautiful I was so infactuated with her body and her. It was more than just a physical attraction. I wanted all of her. My boyfriend took a picture of us together laying naked kissing.. It's super unfortunate that the night got cut short because we all wanted each other really badly. I wanted her so bad. After that things got a little weird but we would still talk about that night and flirt with each other. She'd make out with me on occasion at random bars.. I tried so hard to stay away after she was trying to fix things with her girlfriend. I never started anything she was always the first. I was so shocked that she felt that way about me. I figured she thought I was straight because I have been in the closet for some time. But now we barely speak. Shes with a guy now too. I still dream about her and other girls. She knows a lot about what I want. I told her I just want to eat a girl out. I still just want to eat her out. I did a little the night we had a threesome I'm just pissed because it's hard to remember everything. She broke my heart in the end. But I'm glad she is happy. I just wish we had another chance without hurting anyone.