Learning to love yourself

I’m getting to the end of my pregnancy. I’ve gained same weight, starting to get some stretch marks and I’m unhappy.

I was already unconfident with my body pre pregnancy. I have a disease that cause tumors to grow all over my body and discolored skin. there’s no point in having them removed because they grow right back. I have a larger tumor on my waist that looks like and extra clump of fat and it stands out whenever I where something form fitting.

Now that I’m 35 weeks I catch myself looking in the mirror more and I’m getting scared it will get worse. I also have the BRCA mutation and after the baby is born I will be getting a bilateral preventative mastectomy.

I’m don’t want pitty just tips I guess on how to get mast the imperfections of the human body. How do you become blind to these things and live yourself? My husband and I recently got in a fight because he’s tired of me putting myself down but because of pregnancy hormones tumors have grown at a faster rate and I have many new ones. It’s hard to ignore. I used to be able to over them up but I have a couple starting to grow on my neck and the lower parts of my arms and legs. I guys it’s turtle necks and sweats for the rest of my life