Me (22) and my boyfriend (21) have been together almost 2 years and he broke up with me last week. We met in America, I was on my college program and he worked full time at the same place. But we’ve had to do long distance since August 2019 as I had to move back home to UK to finish university.

Whilst in USA, we had lived together for a few months, been on holiday together and I even met his whole family. I honestly thought that he was the one. We spoke about our future together like where we’d live, buying a house together, kids, pets, and even talking about starting a business together... when I did move back home I was pregnant but I couldn’t keep it even though I wanted to and I also tried to tell my boyfriend about it but he never believed me.

Since I first met his friends they were all nice but there was one who I felt just didn’t like me since the beginning and it kept getting worse. Whenever me and my boyfriend would have an argument he would always tell this friend and the response would be “just leave her”.

I will admit the long distance has been quite difficult. But I feel like he made things worse for the both of us. He would ignore me for days and sometimes weeks, and always say that texting was a “chore”. As well as saying that he feels “lonely” which was his excuse for sleeping with other girls. The first was someone we both worked with (they were texting before I even moved back to the UK), the second was a school friend of his, and there were a few from tinder too. I was dumb enough to forgive him.

He’s now moved back in with his family and recently they all moved to another state, back into their old house. A couple weeks after they moved into their house, he sends me a picture saying he shaved his beard, he was also wearing a shirt which I know he only wears for special occasions. Later that night he tells me that him, his siblings and the neighbours were having a bonfire. I asked him who were these neighbours and he says “a 50 year old obese man, he’s just funny af”. I knew he was lying. He had been pushing me away and ignoring me that whole night. And when I tried to talk to him about it the next day he kept changing the subject and saying that I was overthinking.

I found out that their neighbours are actually a 19 year old girl and her younger brother. The younger brother is dating my boyfriends sister. And now that he’s broken up with me, he’s dating the 19 year old. Personally I find that kinda weird how 2 siblings date another 2 siblings. But it hadn’t even been a whole week since he broke up with me and they started dating!!!

Does he think this whole relationship was a big mistake? Does he regret the whole thing? Was it a waste of almost 2 years? Did I mean anything at all to him? Is this new girl just a rebound from our relationship? Is he just with her for a physical relationship? And even though he cheated on me, lied to me, treated me like absolute shit a lot of the time, I still want to be with him now. Am I stupid for wanting that and still loving him?

I just want to know these things and find out why and to try to get some closure but he’s literally blocked me on everything! Phone number, Facebook, Instagram...

It’s also so tempting to message this new girl, probably cause I’m jealous as well as feeling a lot of other things right now, but also to warn her about what he’s like as us girls have to stick together and I wish someone would have done the same for me as it would have felt easier than this heartbreak. But I know that wouldn’t be such a good idea.

I understand I haven’t been the best girlfriend either during our relationship. But I have never lied to him, or cheated on him. I have only ever wanted what was best for the both of us. I always cared about him. Listened to him. Respected and supported his decisions (even when I knew it wasn’t good) and always stood by his side. He made me happy. And I know I made him happy too.

I guess I’m just posting on here to ask of what I should do next? ... How I can find those answers to the questions above? ... How can I do this without him? As we’ve literally talked almost everyday since being together? ... but also to try to speak to someone about all of it.