I feel super bad and am having some suicidal thoughts all over again. Idk who to turn to and feel like I got nobody to talk to as my besties are having hard times at the moment and they are the only ones I talk too. Idk what to do and how to continue without crying every second or kill myself.

I just feel useless and worthless and I had to put it somewhere sorry for being a burden but I can’t do it anymore. It’s getting very very hard to pretend everything’s alright. And I succeed in doing ut bc that’s my life for more than 10 years to pretend, but it’s becoming too hard and last time it was too hard I ended up at the hospital bc I tried to kill myself. So idk I just wanted to right it down somewhere.

Enjoy your day beauties.