Welcoming myself back..

It's been a couple months since I've been on here. I'm exhausted but I miss seeing the happy announcements. 3 years, a miscarriage in 2018, a chemical pregnancy in april, then a confirmed pregnancy last month only for it to be ectopic. I just want our baby. I want my husband to be a dad and me to finally be a mom. I'm in my 3 month wait after having the methotrexate shot and just recently got the clear that we could be intimate again but still no trying and I got into such a habit of testing and tracking that i feel lost. Anyone else possibly also waiting for any reason?