Tired of BFNs

Sorry, I got to let it all out...

We have been TTC #2 for 6 months now. It took over a year to conceive my daughter (now 18 months) and four rounds of Femara. I have PCOS and didn’t really ovulate on my own.

Now I’m taking Myo-inositol and my cycles are pretty regular. I’m also ovulating now. I thought it would be much easier this time around, but it’s not and a lot of the trauma I had from the first time is resurfacing. I was hopeful this would be our month, but I just got another BFN at 12 dpo. 😭

I’m also feeling pretty depressed right now about going back to work soon (been working at home since March). I’m very nervous about COVID of course, but I’m heartbroken about leaving my daughter after spending all this time together. Plus one of my coworkers (who just had a baby in October) is pregnant again. I can’t handle being around pregnant women right now, especially those who got pregnant so quickly. I’m so thankful for my miracle baby, but I just want to give her a sibling so badly. It sucks having to go through this struggle twice. 😭