I NEED HELP!

Y'ALL IM 14 A FRESHMEN IN HIGH- AND 270 FUCKING POUNDS! I USED TO BE SO SMALL AND I WOULD ALWAYS GET MADE FUN OF SO I JUST ATE THE PAIN AWAY AND IT BIT ME IN THE FUCKING ASS I NEED HELP, PLEASE I DONT WANNA BE LIKE THIS ANYMORE. i cant live like this anymore i wanna die i get judged everyday of my life. And im not blaming this on bad past shit i just want help. Y'all are fucking gorgeous as hell and get sad when you hit 160, and im like damn you beautiful bitch! I just wish. But i fr need help y'all. And i kinda like sombody rn and they will NEVER like me when i look like a potato and a fucking cow had sex. I never felt this way about anybody in my life and they actually talk to me and talk to me? I dont know how the hell that happend but i dont wanna ruin it, y'all got any advice?