So my hubby and I decided it might be a good thing to stop actively trying this cycle bc the last few months of negative tests and pinpointing every little thing thinking it was a symptom when it wasn’t really became mentally taxing and my mental health was spiraling - NO FUN! But we did have a bunch of good lovin’ all month just without tracking everything.

The odd thing is I kind of started to be okay with not having number 2. I love my son and he’s the best thing ever BUT now I’m having some odd things going on.

1 is I am sooo tired, like all the time. To the point where Friday I laid in bed all day while dad did the toddlering lol..

2 is that I’m very depressed, not anxious like I usually am but full on sad. I’m finding it hard to have motivation to do anything at all - my self tanner was fading off so much that my husband actually had to force me to shower and scrub it off bc it looked like dirt lol no joke.

3 I can’t get passed ANYTHING stressful that’s happening. At all. I’m dwelling on everything which may be the depression idk.

4 I want to cry or argue about everything lol poor husband. Poor toddler with a cranky mom.

5 peeing. All. The. Time.

6 I want the junk food. I had weightloss surgery last year & I’ve been so in control of my food choices but now give me alllll the cheesy popcorn and cookies.

7 headaches? I get them often before trying I was on topamax for migraines but stopped taking it as soon as I started trying and these aren’t migraines - just obnoxious headaches on the front of my head.

8 very wet. Like panties wet just after putting them on.

I don’t know what I could have done differently this cycle besides stop testing constantly or barely thinking about it - but I’ve only just put the pieces together and I’m like hmm. Could I be? I have a box of “fertility tea” from pink stork just to see if it would work and only drank 1 cup lol its gross.. I even made the choice to not even test this month and just wait for AF.

I’d love to hear your thoughts. The mental decline is my first sign for me I think. Do you think it may have been the month for me or am I just depressed as shit? Lmk Please :)