I hate myself

My bf and I have been together for 5 years. Ive done so much for him the 5 years, put him even before me..i fucked my own credit, stopped shopping for myself because he always wanted something. But he never prioritized me, only saw me once a week. He always out others before, never once took me on a date and never told me he loved me. I started to hate myself, thinking im not enough or whatever. So yesterday i got ao frustrated because I wanted to meet up and have a talk... but he was like im tired of talking, he was never there for me to vent to him or talk about problems we are having or how hes making me feel. Everytime I did that he always got mad, and I would have to give him money or something to calm him down or for him to not be mad at me. Sp yesterday i felt really emotional and really started hating myself, and i dont know why but I was telling imma self harm and kill myself because hes hurting me so much. He called the cops coz he was worried which i was txting Him. The whole time. All he had to do was say lets fix this or sonething instead of having the cops check on me. Even after that he wont txt me or call me. I tried calling him, becsuse he knows i live with my parents and why woukd he do that. He still hasnt checked on me. He is blaming me for this relationship, he says hes not doing anything wrong or treating ne wrong. Pls tell me what did I do wrong guys.