Hello! I would like to start by saying I am a 21 y/o female. I do not want to self diagnose but for quite a while now I’ve been researching mood and personality disorders because I felt I was finally completely losing my mind and it terrified me. I have been searching for answers to my extreme emotions, moods, lack of identity, impulsivity and much more for 6 years now. I want to figure out what’s actually going on so I can finally just get the proper treatment and get a break from myself sometimes. BPD has always stuck out to me since I came across it because I fit everything to a T plus I do have childhood trauma (I know isn’t always the cause but it is in many cases) But many others say they feel the same even when they don’t have it. My fiancé is the one who is with me everyday and sees me jump from highs to lows very quickly and says it’s hard to keep up with sometimes (Not in a bad way just saying someone else who is around me everyday has noticed the extreme differences in my moods and emotions/reactions). My previous therapist was not very good at getting me to communicate about the right things so I would go in and just not even know where or how to start so I barley opened up to her at all about my childhood or how things run in my brain. She ended up diagnosing me solely with depression and anxiety. 2 years later she diagnosed me with ADHD as well. but I’ve always felt all of those were wrong or at least not the main issue. She does not work with personality disorders so she wouldn’t even consider it when I brought it up. Money has been kinda hard so I haven’t been able to find the proper professional to go get assessed by but I’m curious if anyone has been diagnosed with this how did you find out? What symptoms do you deal with and how do you find relief during episodes? What are some tips for when you split (or start devaluing) your S/O?