I’m so done

I really need to vent. I’m so sick of being in this miserable relationship with my boyfriend of 7 years. He’s been so mean to me lately mentally abusing me and talking horrible of me to his friends and family. I don’t feel loved by his family as before they’ve been so distant with me lately. I’ve caught him several times telling his brother when they play on the ps4 that I am so annoying as always and his brother agrees to. When he’s around or comes over to our apartment he makes a face and is so disrespectful and my bf just stays quiet saying to get use to it because his brother is outspoken and doesn’t care who he hurts that he is just “blunt”. My family loves him because he so loving and caring about them but with me I can tell he hates me. I see all these couples, the gfs being treated with respect and have love given to them being cared for while my bf is so unsupportive about my goals or dreams. Hes gets upset about me saving my money for my tuition saying why can’t I be the one taking care of all the bills and rent when I have money which by the way we go half and half on everything. His parents help for his part which is not fair mind you were 25 he doesn’t work or go to school. He compares to himself to guys ive talked to in the past when we were in a break for a year saying that why don’t I go to those guys that have money and have the nice cars. I honestly don’t care about the money all I want is to grow with someone, be loved. I can’t even talk to him about any of this because he gets so upset and defensive saying mean things towards me. I do love him but I feel like he is losing me slowly day by day when he says mean things especially when he is drunk saying he hates me and yells it especially to his mom saying he will never love me and hates me and she will be the only women he loves. We just moved into our first apartment together 4 months ago and I’m starting to regret it I never expected it to be like this.