I’ve been feeling a bit down lately, putting myself out there and talking to people again...I don’t want to anymore, I’m just tired. I feel like I just dont have the energy to talk to anyone.

Honestly, I dunno why I’m still sad about it. Not sad enough to just lay around and mope about it but just sad enough to feel it as I go about my day.

How to get myself to stop seeing him as this amazing person? The person who gave me the push I needed to go for everything I wanted for myself, someone who inspired me, and knew exactly what to say when I was too inside myself.

How do I get myself to stop thinking about him and wondering what he’s doing? Wondering if he misses me?

We were just friends but he was someone I wanted to wait forever for...silly, I know. Stupid even

I thought he felt the same way about me enough to wait for me too.

Even though he hurt me not only just as a friend but someone who had feelings for him...I wanna make myself see him as the person who only hurt me but how do I do that?

I don’t wanna feel sad inside, the feeling that I lost someone amazing😔

Am i even making sense?