Awkward sex life with boyfriend

My boyfriend and I have been together a little over a year. Im 19 and he’s 28. (I was not underage when we started dating).

Our main issue I believe with our sex life is that he’s never gave me anything close to an orgasm. But neither has any other guy I’ve been with so I wasn’t overly concerned about it as I’m use to it.

This has although caused me to not feel incredibly sexually attracted to him. Yes, I do find him attractive and nice to look at but sex for us is more for him to cum. It can still feel nice during but leaves me feeling unsatisfied.

We’ve talked about this many times and I’ve explained to him we just need to add a clit vibe in to do the trick. When we would try to do this, no matter how clear of instructions I give him, he fails to follow them. He would be goofy with it or overall make the situation awkward by doing things like making sound affects or turning on the vibe to the highest setting before we even start the foreplay. I once tried to control the vibe myself but he kept bumping into it (he has a larger stomach and he didn’t want to do it doggy) and it quite turned him off.

This whole time I’ve never gave him a blowjob. He had claimed he didn’t like them but recently he keeps asking for one. We’ve tried recently but I just wasn’t into it. He thought jack rabbiting my vagina with his fingers while I was doing it would help but it honestly all felt awful. I really don’t feel attracted to him enough too because of the above issues. I’ve never even really ever gave one before this. He knows this.

Then today he bought an electric toothbrush and thought it would be fun/funny to put it on my vagina through my pants. It was plain awkward. I told him we could go to sex shop if he actually wants to try but he brushed it off saying how about we go the bedroom and use the toothbrush to do it. Like what even? He’s been so hyper focused on him getting a blowjob. He never even goes down on me so I figured it’s been a fair trade. Now it’s just weird.