I’m feeling extremely sad right now

Yea my life is sad because I can’t take my child anywhere because of covid. She’s too young to wear a mask. I don’t go out because of it.

My “days off” are cleaning days.

I can’t afford to buy a house because I don’t have a job even though we have a lot of damn liquid cash for a house. All because banks see my husbands business as a liability.

My in laws dislike me for no reason. They talk about me to their 11 year old in the family. They call me ugly. They gave my 3 month old child a whole grape to eat. They try to come in-between me and my husband by saying indirect lies. They did so many bad things to me I can write a damn textbook.

I’m always thinking about if my husband is gonna leave me one day for another woman who’s younger, better looking, who’s body isn’t ruined because of childbirth, or if he’s gonna cheat on me and take it further.

The only good thing I have is my baby.

I can depend on my husband for help but I’m always double thinking and I won’t ever leave him because I’m scared as hell of what’s going to happen to me but mostly to my daughter who won’t have her dad 24/7.