I am a queen I deserve better than a husband that. Yells and screams at 4 am in the morning because he can't find socks. I deserve better than someone who makes fun of my past and trama. Better than someone who brakes my heart on a daily basis by telling our one year old son that nobody loves him. I deserve better than someone who makes fun of a eating disorder that I am still fighting. I deserve more support. I deserve someone who knows that it's not all the woman's fault if a woman gets pregnant. I need someone who won't tell me that our maybe baby #2 needs to disappear. I don't even know why I am still here. Everytime I think about leaving I get scared because I have no where else to go. I am no contact with my mom because she is a bicth on wheels. I would call my sil but I think that would be a bad idea.