Don’t know what to do

Lately for the past few years I’ve been sad, because my dad keeps trying to force me into joining the military and my mom who I thought would be on my side keeps agreeing with him. So that’s been weighing on me along with trying to graduate high school with good enough grades to get into college so I wouldn’t have to join the military, then I got a boyfriend (my first boyfriend) and it was cool for the first couple months but I knew I was graduating and that once I graduated I would move back to my home state (which I did and it’s been 3 months) so my feelings kinda started to shut down so I wouldn’t you know end up loving this guy while doing the long distance thing because literally anything can happen and I don’t want to be hurt if something bad happens. Now doing long distance makes me sad and the fact that I can’t put my all into this relationship like he is makes me feel horrible. As of recent I can’t seem to feel motivated to do anything like get a job, get my drivers license or apply for colleges or do anything with my life and I’m constantly being called lazy by my family which isn’t helping then on top of all of this I lost my pet yesterday who always made me feel better and I just don’t know what to do anymore to make me happy. I don’t wanna say I’m depressed because I feel like that’s such a serious mental illness and I don’t wanna just be throwing that word around like it’s not but I seriously don’t feel happy anymore, nothing makes me excited to wake up every morning anymore. I just really need some advice on what to do.