Period mood. Also discharge..??

Anyone ever feel like this?? I’m 6 months postpartum and every time I get my period I get sad and depressed. I wish I wouldn’t get it and I’d be pregnant again. This month I feel odd and I’m supposed to get it tomorrow but it almost feels like Im ovulating or something?? I have a little discharge and this is unusual for me. We talk about having more kids but we’re planning on waiting a few more months. I just keep getting so upset every time I get my period