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I think I have a eating disorder but because I haven’t starved myself and I’m not skinny I feel like nobody would believe me. I don’t know what to do. Some backstory about my mental health. Last year I was admitted to a depression mental health ward and it was really hard. I never want to have to agian. My parents believe in mental health and would support me I just don’t want to tell them because I am finally back to normal from depression.

My symptoms are being triggered to want to start starving myself and hating my body so much I want to anything to make it pretty. But I can’t seem to start starving myself because I love food and I love to binge but I am worried I do have a eating disorder because I feel like someday I might start eating metaled. Can somebody tell me if I should get help? I feel like I am in a endless loop. Please answer I need encouragement. Thank you ❤️