Feeling low 🥺

I feel like I’m just really starting to feel low again and I don’t like talking to people about it. I haven’t been able to stay in my own home. My bf had to work from 12:30pm-9:00pm which is no big deal I just hate being alone when I start feeling this way. I feel like I get lost in my own thoughts if I don’t have someone there to just help and distract me. I’ve literally spent all day outside I don’t even know doing what. Walking aimlessly, sitting on benches, park swinging, walking to store. Etc. I’ve tried seeking help for it all and didn’t like it. I don’t know it just didn’t feel right.