deal breaker??? 😧

so me and my fiancé were talking about kids the other day. i’ve always wanted kids, more than anything. if i was ever told I couldn’t have kids it would be devastating for me. anyways, he’s always had bad pains in his balls...literally i’ll touch them sometimes and he about jumps out of his skin in pain. I told him he needed to get that checked out months ago because that’s not normal.

we were talking again today and he was like “what if we can’t have kids and i’m the reason why” ? I was like well we could adopt or get a sperm donor, and he said no. he said we would could possibly adopt, but having a sperm donor and me having a child, that wasn’t his child wasn’t going to happen. he said he wouldn’t raise someone else’s child, even if I birthed it.

this is something I want to experience, birth at least once. idk i’m just hurt and idk what to think.