I had 2 kids when I was very young. Looking back I realized that I never got to fully enjoy the first years of their lives due to working, school, dealing with a lot of nonsense with their father. Fast forward in time as an adult I have established myself very well. got married bought a house and the next step would be to have a baby or 2. With hopes that now I can fully enjoy every second even the not so good ones. Except 5 years later and nothing 😭 I have gotten checked and everything is fine, I have gotten positive opk’s month after month, I get my period RELIGIOUSLY every 30 day’s, I don’t smoke or do drugs, But I drink socially.. and then there’s my husband with a low sperm count.. iv accepted that I may never have the big family that I have always wanted and that’s ok, I mean after all I should be thankful that I already have 2... so tonight was my husbands sister gender reveal.. I of course don’t go because I don’t like his sisters.. (they don’t know that I know about all the shit they have said about me behind my back and also certain things they done to me and tried to act like they didn’t know it was wrong) but anyways I tell my husband I think its a girl... he calls to tell me that it is a girl and that his sister in fact CRIED because she was “devastated” since she wanted a boy and as my husband tells her she should be grateful to have one healthy baby her response to him was “he would never understand”. Now I am so glad beyond relief that I wasn’t there because if it were me she would have said that to my response would have been “your right I don’t understand because while I have tried month after month, cried at the sight of AF every 30 days, praying that this month will be the month, driving myself crazy thinking I have early symptoms, smiling at every baby I see near me wishing to just be able to hold or smell them, seeing EVERYONE around me get pregnant, give birth, and enjoy the moments I wish so dearly to enjoy, you are sitting here CRYING over devastation about having a girl over a boy” ugh ladies... I’m just going to drink my sorrows away with this wine and hope for a better day tomorrow 😩 Rant over