I prayed so hard and cried so much month after month, I’m so scared that this month isn’t going to be the one where I see two lines, I’m so fearful of another negative test and an irregular period that I get literal anxiety, even though I ovulate in 5 days from now, something in my heart is just telling me this cycle isn’t it, and eventually I’ll have to adopt ( which isn’t a bad thing ), I just really want to experience pregnancy and bond with my child and have that connection, however I just feel like it isn’t in my cards ;/