I am devastated, my husband and I were supposed to be starting our TTC journey these next few weeks (September). We have a daughter who will be 3 in February. She is so ready for a sibling and would be a great big sister. I so desperately want to be able to give her a sibling. I have wanted to have another child for 2 years now but I knew it wasn't the right time. My husband and I agreed last year that this would be the time we would begin trying. I have been so excited, getting ready for this. I could tell these last few weeks my husband was holding back and seemed nervous. Today, he told me he didn't think he was ready. I know I should respect his wishes and that its not fair to push him into something he doesn't want. That's why I'm ranting on here. I am hurt that he waited this long and watched my excitement build and then sprung it on me a week before. To me, this feels like the perfect time. I wanted our children to be close in age and I already feel like the age difference is more than I wanted. I don't know. I know its not the worst thing, especially with all that's going on in the world right now. But I can't deny I feel pretty heartbroken... any advice?