Ugh I hate me sometimes

My boyfriend was over my house tonight. I still live at home with my parents and sometimes I just get awkward around them with my boyfriend and I just feel so bad because he was talking to them but we were like on our way out the door and then they kept talking and talking to them and I didn’t really offer for him to sit down with them.

We were out on the patio the rest of the night just me and him and he said that next time hesover he can hangout with them more so it doesn’t feel like hes hiding from them. I feel so bad. I didn’t mean for it to feel like that I just wanted him and me to have some time alone since it’s our date night and I also asked if my mom wanted to come out.

My parents also put on a show for him. They aren’t the nicest people to me behind closed doors. Especially my dad. So when my boyfriends around it’s like they are different people. Well mostly my dad. He can be abusive and I guess I just get awkward around him when he starts to act all buddy buddy and happy with my boyfriend. Idk. I’m just awkward I guess.

The moment my boyfriend left I tried to talk to my dad and he was rude and obnoxious to me? Idk