PPD?...

What sign did you have that you knew you had ppd?

Lately I’ve been so irritable and I always get these bad thought like I hate being a mother or I hate my life now or other thing and I hate it and makes me sad that I keep having these thought. Others time I just start crying over the smallest things or feel like I’m not a good mother like I’m doing everything wrong and my husband always criticized me in how I’m doing something and it makes me feel like shit like I don’t know how to take care of my daughter and it gets me mad at him.

But I don’t feel like this all the time a lot of the time I’m fine or I’m happy and I look at my daughter and feel so happy it’s only some time I feel the other way.

I don’t know it’s if just because I’m tired because I don’t get a lot of sleep. Or if it’s just I don’t get a break because I take care of my daughter 24/7 because my husband works and I mean I do get a break when he comes home to take a 2 hour nap but it’s then back to taking care of her. My husband helps me the best he can.

I don’t know if I’m starting to get ppd or I’m just overwhelmed since it’s my first baby and she’s only 4 weeks.

I’ve had depression when I was young but I was aware of it I never took medicine because my mom was so against it I just went to therapy

But I don’t feel the way I did when I was depressed so that’s what makes me think that I don’t have ppd and it’s just I’m tired and overwhelmed.

I also had anxiety and started biting my lips again.

My husband wanted to take me to the doctor because he got worried but I don’t feel I need to because I don’t feel like this all the time.

I honestly don’t know what to do....