Feeling really emotional

My husband and I have been trying for our second baby since the start of May. I was pregnant back in February, but unfortunately miscarried in April.

It’s been an emotional journey, like a lot of us, where every month I obsess over trying to find a glimpse of that second line in the pregnancy test, and when I find out it’s a negative I always cry.

I track my ovulation, so I tell my husband when we should have sex.

Today was my most fertile day, and my husband was too tired for sex. He said ‘why can’t we tomorrow night’ and I said the window might have closed by then, and then he went to sleep.

I feel shattered. Let down. But also conflicting, because I don’t want to force him.

I mentioned it to him earlier today, that today was an important day, and he went to bed, sat on his phone for an hour, and then went to sleep.

I sometimes feel like I’m in this alone. That I want this more than him. I want desperately to give our daughter just one sibling. He sees how upset I get every month when it’s negative. I feel like I’m being irrational, but this whole process is so stressful and anxiety inducing.

Anyone else in a similar situation??