For the longest time I always thought I was going to have the white picket fence with the perfect family, be a stay at home mom with the kids. Well, the more I’ve become an adult the more I’ve started thinking maybe kids aren’t for me. Maybe I’m too selfish to have kids, and honestly child birth scares the living shit out of me. Well surprise!! I’m pregnant, and I’m about 12 weeks and I just feel bad because I have fleeting moments of excitement but mainly fear and anxiety. I feel like I’m an awful person for not being super excited about this pregnant.