32 weeks pregnant and disappointed

I'm 32 weeks and had my appointment with my doctor today. I asked her to check me down there and she said there no point because everything is fine. Baby head is already down and she said the baby weight 5 lbs and with only 7 weeks to go I should be on a diet of only fiber, protein and water to make sure the baby doesn't gain too much weight because it's my first baby if baby gets to big I will need a c section and I should expect to give birth 2 weeks after my due date.

So far if only gain 18 pounds so far. I'm 5'5 and currently 198 lbs. My stomach is really tiny for 8 months, many people think I'm 4 or 5 months pregnant...

Everytime I bring a concern to her she say, it's normal part of pregnancy. I honestly do not want her to deliver my baby, but since I'm so far along no other doctor will touch me.

She honestly came in measures my stomach and say "do have any questions" and most of the time her answers are "that's normal"

I'm starting to feel some type of way where, I hope shes not on call when I deliver so I dont have to deal with her. Picking a black doctor because of all the things I hear about black women dying during delivery really back fired on me. I should of when with a white male.

Feeling some type of way ....

I'm I over reacting? Ot letting my anxiety get to me?